Can't Sleep

I cannot get to sleep.. I know I need to because in just a matter of hrs the kids are going to be over here and we all know how you need your wits about you when the kids are around. O well. I am so excited for them to open up what I got them. I think that they are all going to love them. I especially excited to see my brother-in-law open up his. I love him so much he is so much like a big brother to me. I hate it that he feels left out by his other family or feels second best. In this family we love him so much and I hope that he never feels like he is second best with us. I would go to him for anything. Well...almost anything. he he he. Good luck to the guy who tries to ask me to marry him. My bro would be all over that. Ya know making sure he is a good guy for me and what not.

O man my cousin came over tonight with his wive and kid. It was so funny he's like Erica what happened to you because I was all dressed up and looking grown up and all. He was like you got....umm....you got um....taller! It was so funny I guess that you had to have been there but it was pretty funny. My brother-in-law had a good time with it. He was telling my sister about it. You see my family doesn't see me get all dressed up and put together all that much because, well, lets face it its family. Who really cares if you see you all dressed up or not. But you see we had everyone over as you already knew and some foreign exchange students of my aunt and uncles were over here. And let me tell you folks the guy from Germany was very fine indeed. I think that he might have thought the same about me too. I don't know though. O well he has to go back home at the end of June anyways. It wouldn't work out but lord he was good looking. The other guy was funny too a lil more laid back I guess I don't really know. Maybe he was just shy. But only those two were really talking to each other tonight. The guy from Germany did talk to me some of the time. O well.....

So I have decided that I am not going to call Danny because well....I need to teach him a lesson. Ya know the lesson that he can't just walk all over me and get away with it and stuff ya know what I mean??? Well that and that he shouldn't make promises or commitments that he can't make. Like him calling me or wanting to get together. Mom says that he should be a man and call me and you know what I'm starting to think that she is right. I don't know I'm starting to get better. If I can just get past this week without talking to him I think that I will be ok. Chris what do you think??? You know me better than anyone help me!

BTW I tried to call you all day yesterday and no one was answering. So if you get time give me a buzz. I will talk to you later luv ya!