Why Danny Why

OK so I know that I said that I was done with him and that it didn't bother me anymore and that I was never going to think or talk about him again.........well I was lying!!!! So now I have to get this off my chest.

Why don't you call me? Why don't you try to come by and see me? I know I wasn't the nicest person when I talked to you the past couple of times but you really hurt my feelings...I just want you to be a man and call me once in awhile....even if its just to call to say hello....I just wanted to feel special I called you all the time every night before I went to bed actually and you called me what once out of 2 years.....I called you to get together to exchange gifts and what do you say....I'm uhh.....busy! BUSY!!!! I guess that you are too busy for me so I should just remove myself from your life completely because even when I tried to call you again to see if you wanted to get together you told me that you would call and you know what you didn't!!! So yea I called you again to bitch you out I'm sorry but I just am so hurt by you not calling me.......I don't want you to be my boyfriend but I did want you to be my best friend....the one I turn to you and Chris you were the only ones that I had....Thank God that I still have Chris because w/o him I would be lost right now....I just thought that you would like to know how I was feeling about all of this....I know that you will never read this but it kind of helps me to vent....I love you Danny I probably always will but....you never will know that because I am removing myself from your life......it will be hard yes but I am a Survivor and I will be ok....Like Chris said there are better people out in the world and I will hopefully find them.....I just thougth that you should know.....Love you!

Ok so sorry about all of that but it really helps me to get that off my chest and well the only person that is going to read this is Chris and he knows the whole story so why should I feel ashamed??? I am so sorry about tonight Chris I was so horrible I am so sorry I really did have a good time and I just need ur help to be nicer I guess I'm sorry about the movies tonight......Man I came home and just cried and cried it felt good to do that....I think this is the first step in both the healing and forgetting process! Lets hope anyways!