I hate being sick

So I had to call into work yesterday and today because I couldn't keep food down. So I told them that when I called in today and you know what my boss had to say.....I really need you to try to come in anyways....BULL SHIT!!!!

Well I called Danny and he said that he would call me today....has he NO!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!! OK now that that is out of my system I'm going to go watch a movie w/ my sister happy new year all!!!

Nothin much to report

Work was really stressful tonight because I was basically the lead over 5 different areas that had to be all done by a specific time! Yea what was worse was I only had two other ppl besides me helpin!! But, some how we kept it up...amazing... So my ex bf is callin me and I don't understand why because he has a fiance. I know that we are friends and all but I don't know it seems kinda weird to me....but o well I will always be a good friend to him. I hope that him and his fiance stay together they seem like they were made for each other. I hope that it works out for him.

My friend is sick and she is going to the Dr. tomorrow....hope that they figure out what is wrong with her. I hate our boss tho....she wasn't going to let her go home even though she was throwing up WATER!!!!! Man I heard that and I was so freakin pissed off! I hope that she gets fired I don't think she knows anything about her job....and I just hate the way she dresses....its like she is trying to show off her huge boobs to the world!!! And she isn't skinny either.....(this is not about my friend but the boss)(just to clarify things) Well I'm going to go play some games laterz....

Boredom...it sucks

Well as you guessed from my tittle...I'm bored. I kinda hate being a nite owl because no one is every online because they are all asleep. You can't call anyone because once again they are all asleep!! It really sucks. I went and I hun out with my sister...the one who I am not fighting with right now. I had so much fun...I had forgotten how much fun she is when it is just her and I. I need to start hanging out with her more. Her husband called tonight and I answered the phone and he's all like Hey baby....I'm like hey urself. He's like what the hell you doin answering the phone....I just laughed and then her son did the same thing but called me mom. I love that family so much! Well nothing else really to talk about.....so laterz...again....

Still nothing

So Danny still hasn't called me (best friend). I will give him until the New Year and then I'm calling his lazy ass and tellin him exactly what I think of him. I still haven't gotten ahold of Chris and I miss him. My dad and I went to the local museum today. It was a lot of fun! Then he took me out to the brewery to grab some lunch. I got to see one of my old bosses out at his new job. I just love him to death. I miss him a lot! Hey Heather if you are reading this I'm sorry that you are sick! I hope that you get better before new year! Hey I got Keith Andersons new CD!!! PICKIN WILD FLOWERS!!!!!!! Damn is he a fine man or what! Laterz......

Why

Ok so I was wondering why guys like to act like such ass holes!! I was having fun out with Bri until I met her cousin which was acting like a complete ahole. He was being so imature and crap like that. We were supposed to go out to the lake so that I could mee some of her friends and shit but o well....that got cancelled. And I just don't understand Danny. I don't understand why he won't call me. He says that he doesn't like to call the house and I just don't fucking understand that shit. I just hate it. He was my best friend!!! For him to do this to me just hurts. It really fucking hurts! I want to call and tell him that but then again like my last post I'm not going to call him because I want to teach him a lesson. I just hate waiting. If he hasn't called me by Jan. I'm thinking that I will call him or maybe I will wait until my sister leaves. Ha ha speaking of which I haven't talked to her today except hey let me talk to mom and dad when I called home from the resturant. HE HE HE!!! I'm such a bitch and I love it. Well I think that I'm going to go call Bri....

It finally happened

Ok so my sister finally pushed me far enough today. I for some reason just could not handle her comments of go get this and that and get the hell out the door because of something. I finally snapped. I was miraculously able to keep myself under control and not got full throttle on her ass. O man I so wanted to just slam on the brakes put the car in park and tell her everything. Tell her exactly how I was feeling. She even had the nerve to tell me that I was being testy! FUCK look at why I am this way. Ya'all gang up on me and I'm sick and tired of it. Don't ever ask me to go and get another damn thing for you. You know this is going to sound really really bad but I'm just ready for her to go back home. Either that or I need to just leave whenever she comes up. It seems like something like this always happens. O well tho I guess. I just want so much to tell her exactly how I'm feeling ya know. Hopefully Danny will call me and on New Years Eve I can just go over there and drink till I puke. Not really but sounds kinda nice ha ha just kidding again. I just want to forget this whole Christmas! Merry Christmas all!

On top of all of that I still can't get a hold of Chris or anyone else and I feel utterly alone! This is when missing Danny comes in because it used to be no matter what he had time for me. But I guess that has all changed. I just want a couple of real true friends who try to call me keep in touch with me. Instead I'm the one who is always doing the calling and trying to keep in touch. Right now the only true friend I think that I have is Bri! Thank you Lord for her I know that you knew I needed her. Thanks! Now if only you could just help me take away the loneliness that I am feeling. Or possibly have Danny call me and change that one little thing about him. Thanks!

Can't Sleep

I cannot get to sleep.. I know I need to because in just a matter of hrs the kids are going to be over here and we all know how you need your wits about you when the kids are around. O well. I am so excited for them to open up what I got them. I think that they are all going to love them. I especially excited to see my brother-in-law open up his. I love him so much he is so much like a big brother to me. I hate it that he feels left out by his other family or feels second best. In this family we love him so much and I hope that he never feels like he is second best with us. I would go to him for anything. Well...almost anything. he he he. Good luck to the guy who tries to ask me to marry him. My bro would be all over that. Ya know making sure he is a good guy for me and what not.

O man my cousin came over tonight with his wive and kid. It was so funny he's like Erica what happened to you because I was all dressed up and looking grown up and all. He was like you got....umm....you got um....taller! It was so funny I guess that you had to have been there but it was pretty funny. My brother-in-law had a good time with it. He was telling my sister about it. You see my family doesn't see me get all dressed up and put together all that much because, well, lets face it its family. Who really cares if you see you all dressed up or not. But you see we had everyone over as you already knew and some foreign exchange students of my aunt and uncles were over here. And let me tell you folks the guy from Germany was very fine indeed. I think that he might have thought the same about me too. I don't know though. O well he has to go back home at the end of June anyways. It wouldn't work out but lord he was good looking. The other guy was funny too a lil more laid back I guess I don't really know. Maybe he was just shy. But only those two were really talking to each other tonight. The guy from Germany did talk to me some of the time. O well.....

So I have decided that I am not going to call Danny because well....I need to teach him a lesson. Ya know the lesson that he can't just walk all over me and get away with it and stuff ya know what I mean??? Well that and that he shouldn't make promises or commitments that he can't make. Like him calling me or wanting to get together. Mom says that he should be a man and call me and you know what I'm starting to think that she is right. I don't know I'm starting to get better. If I can just get past this week without talking to him I think that I will be ok. Chris what do you think??? You know me better than anyone help me!

BTW I tried to call you all day yesterday and no one was answering. So if you get time give me a buzz. I will talk to you later luv ya!

Mom's home

Mom just got home from work and remember me saying how much of a perfectionist she is....well she has already started in. Oh well once everyone gets here I think that she will start to relax. Hopefully. So if anyone is reading this please please pray for me. My neice is sitting on my lap wanted so much to type (pound on the keyboard). I love this little girl she is one of gods precious gifts! Well I'm going to go and let her play now.

I love being busy.....for the most part

As we all know today is Christmas Eve. And for those of you who do not know my mother well, she is a perfectionist and tonight we are having the family over for the traditional Christmas Eve party. Since she is such a perfectionist everything has to be just perfect and today is the busy day that we all have our little chore list of things to do. Me...I got off easy...I just finished up wrapping some packages and said that I needed to pick up my room. Well....I am still "working" on my room. Thank goodness they are alseep now. Dad was doing the cooking. Sis helped with the cleaning and what not...while my other sister I think helped dad....not too sure on that. I think she was milking it just like me. She makes me so mad sometimes. I just don't know how we are sisters sometimes because we don't look alike or even act alike. It seems like we have nothing in common. When I get a good idea about something she is like o you better check that out and make sure that is right. I just wanted to live in a dream world for just a little while but no she has to bring reality crashing in with her. I live in the real world I know she doesn't think that because I don't live on my own or pay for most things but I am trying to prepare myself. And if I may say so myself I think that I am doing pretty well job of getting ready. I think that I am doing better than her. But here I go again saying only negative things about her. hmm...seems to be a trend there huh. O well. Someone is up maybe I should get back to work....nah I can't until the baby wakes up because I need to vaccum. Merry Christmas all!!

And you think I want to???

Ok so as you can tell by my tittle I really didn't want to do something.. Well as you know my sister is in town and don't get me wrong I love my sister to death but damn it it is my vacation too! I mean I know that she needs a break every once in awhile because she is a mom...but I would like to relax now too that I am out of school. But she has me going and getting stuff for her. "Erica can you go do this" "Erica go put the dishes away and grab me a this and that" I love my sister but sometimes I feel like while she is here I'm her chaffer and her maid as well. or just her gofer. lol.

I went to work and that was a blah thing. I was sick and I was back in seasonal where hello everyone is going to be because its only two days away from CHRISTMAS!!! O well I didn't really do all that much zoning tonight. For anyone reading this its when you pull things forward right Heather?? LOL don't you miss it! Neways thats about the extent of which I want to talk about work because I don't have to go back until TUESDAY!!! Also I'm happy to report that I am feeling much better than last night and this morning.

So I got my hair cut and if I do say so myself it is really freaking cute. O my bad according to Jen and Toni its sexy hair. LOL. I love those two they crack me up. Brinkly really liked my hair too and poor thing she was sick tonight too and I felt so bad for her. She has to work tomorrow too. But hey atleast she got to leave early tonight. She didn't have to say till ten like I did. O yea and Danny still hasn't called. Some best friend huh?

Hell has frozen over and pigs are flying!!

Ok so I let that little bit of info that I found out about my friend having a serious relationship. And I have now come to the conclusion that hell has frozen over and pigs are flying. Why?? Because I don't have anyone....but really I am happy for him I just kinda thought that I would have someone before him. I know that is really really really mean and I don't mean for it to be but....neways. I'm really happy for him and he deserves a good girl I hope that they are doing good and that she will treat him right. Now if only I knew what was going on with Danny I would be set. Mom and I think that he was out buying me my Christmas present and thats why he couldn't come or was ummm "busy" as he put it. But that still doesn't excuse him for now calling me damn it. Yes I know I seem to be holding on to this a lil too much but I'm sorry he was supposed to be my best friend!! Plus this is why this is called "Erica's venting corner"!!! Which I think should be all caps I think that is what I will do. Well maybe not all caps but capitialize the first letter of the words. Well laterz!

Hello Reality

Doesn't it just suck to finally figure out that someone you were once totally committed to is not who you thought that they were? Or you just don't have anything in common with them? Well that is what I'm starting to figure out. I'm talking to this guy who I used to adore and could honestly swear I could see myself marrying the guy. And we aren't even talking (typing) because we have gone our seperate ways ya know what I mean. Heather you know who I'm talking about. Everett...the guy with the nice cars. Yea and to add to that Danny still hasn't called me and I'm just really heart broken. He was supposed to be my best friend. But I guess all good things come to an end. Why is it around the holidays do ppl get the most depressed???

O now he tells me that he is dating someone and he has been dating her for awhile. What is up with all the secrets now? First Danny now him!!

Why do ppl do what they do???

OK so it is Christmas right? Well why is it that since this is supposed to be such a great time of the year and everyone is supposed to be nice and jolly....do they act like complete asses?! Also...why is it that guys like to agree to do something with you and then say o I um....got busy! BULL SHIT!! That is all I have to say. So now him and I aren't talking and I just want to talk to him so bad now. I miss him. But, I know that I can't call him because I should show him that he reawlly did hurt my feelings. Maybe I'm just too nice for my own good. I don't know. So now I'm all down and everything because my friends were all going out tonight and yea Bri did ask me to go with her but for some stupid idiotic reason I said no..and I have no one to talk too. I just feel alone I guess and I think that is why I miss him becasue this is what we did at night. We talked to each other. I called him all the time, granted he never called me which is one reason why I'm trying so hard not to call him. I just don't know..I think I'm getting sick and thats why I'm being all emotional and shit. Well, I hope that he calls me so that I can start talking to him again. If he doesn't well....bye bye friendship. It's a two way street and he should call me sometimes and go through with his promise. I know none of this makes sense. I"m just rambling but o well! Thats what this is all about!